kilonji

I confess I might have thought of a more accurate name, semantically speaking. Colloquy generally involves more than one person, and I'm more or less talking to myself and a figurative audience. Go figure. But like many writers, I am possessed by the pesky compulsion to expose myself in some public arena, and here's as good a place as any. There's just enough anonymity here to keep my family from disowning me, anyway.

But what to say? I have many, many fleeting interests. Cross-stitching. Anime. History. Sleeping. Current events. Diet Pepsi and popcorn shrimp with ranch dressing. The list goes on. Let me settle, for now, upon the subject that is on my mind.

My hair can go from straight and smooth to nappy and annoying in thirty seconds flat. Now before I tackle the endless subject of my adherence to the oppressor's concept of beauty and how I am a spineless, assimilating, self-hating negro (all of which are true or false, in terms of degrees) let me explain something. I am—from years of being an angry, world-hating, social leper—a proud independent. When the world was listening to Jay-Z, I was still listening to Chicago. When the world decided cellphones were cool, I didn't even have a home phone. And yeah, I am not now nor do I ever anticipate being on the Obama Love Train. I think politicians suck in general and I'd prefer to vote for Calvin and Hobbes. Just think of the international relations strategies they'd come up with. But ah, I digress.

I've done relaxers since I was a small child. My only Jheri-curl resulted in hair shorter than Gary Coleman's. It was over-processed in the parlor and by the time I left there, my shoulder-length hair had completely broken off. Which was, of course, the tragedy of my twelve-year existence. Later I wore my hair in braids more than once, and have had cheap weave. I doubt I can ever sit still that long again, so that's not an option. And dreadlocks? Yes, I am a slob. But I could not imagine going more than a month without washing my hair. Once a week is fine, thank you very much.

My hair is my hair, and I kinda like it now how it is. Except when it's hot. Or, to be exact, humid. Humidity is actually an Iowa tradition. I think the state might have patented it, somewhere along the line. But anyway, when it's like this, my hair will not hold any kind of curl and goes completely frizzy. I call it my buckwheat imitation, and complete it by nookin' pa nub in all the wong paces. (Hee! Eddy Murphy when he was funny! I remember that!) I've considered chopping off my hair but I'm too vain. So my hair, like so many annoyances in my life, has been filed under “Complain about it, but put up with it.” Don't we all have things like that, really?

In other news, the economy is still a mess, ice cream tastes good and I've got writer's block. Heh.

Ponderable: Why does spell check demand that I capitalize “negro”?

For all you GinXMatsumoto diehards.

 

Borrowed from

laurie_bunter

stompboxer

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.

2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.

3. Post that to your journal with these instructions.

Oh my.  And I thought my life was demoralizing.

Our inaugural story, seeing as I'm the only one here, might as well be mine.  A thousand thanks for viewing!

 

Stolen from 

laurie_bunter

cavisze

 1. Name: Sabrina
2. Birthday: March 24
3. Where do you live: Des Moines, IA
4: What are you studying/What are you working as: Loan Documentation Specialist at I-Can't-say-where
5. What makes you happy: good music, good words, and chocolate.
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last: Spitz, "Tamagawa" (Honey & Clover sndtrk)
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ: I love the variety, dislike that it's not updated more often.
8. An interesting fact about you: I cross stitch and am learning to embroider?
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment: Good God, no.
10. Favorite place to be: Home in my own bed
11. Favorite lyric: "I'm standing here in your closet, I'm buttoning up your clothes. I'll sleep in your bed to night, but I never find you home" ~ "Ladder," by Joan Osborne
12. Best time of the year: spring!!!
13. Weirdest food you like: *shifty eyes* chittlins :P

RECOMMEND
1. A film: Oscar and Lucinda
2. A book: Good King Harry by Denise Giardina
3. A song: "As" by Stevie Wonder
4: A band: Ben Folds Five

FANDOM
1. Favorite Fandom: Bleach, of course, follwed very closely by Honey and Clover

2. OTP/OT3:*more shifty eyes* ichiruki has been now knocked out of my #1 spot by RenjixTatsuki. Long love the RenTat.

3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join): kilonjiland, now open to the weird public.

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me: You're an open kind of person and comfortable with who you are. You're also a kickass writer. (hee hee that's three.)
2. Two things you like about yourself: I'm a thinker and I can be kinda funny?
3. Put this in your LJ so I can tell you what I think of you? Sure, I'm feeling daring.

The EMO meme

 1.WOULD YOU BE THE FIRST TO SAY SORRY IF YOU HAD A MISUNDERSTANDING WITH YOUR FRIENDS?
Definitely. Calm them down first and try to shift the blame later.

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A t-shirt.

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
I doubt it.

4. HOW MANY IN YOUR FRIENDS LIST IS YOUR EX?
One. But I haven't heard a peep out of the dude in six months.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
Only one. The ex.

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
I have no idea.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR FAMILY?
Sure it's good. Good and co-dependant.

8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE NOW?
If it had been up to me I would have been named "anything but Sabrina". It if were up to my Aunt, it would have been "Saprina." Thank god for my mother's evasive skills.

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
I doubt it.

10. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
I went to Ryan's Steakhouse with my mom, sister & brother had some overly sweet things I was not supposed to have.

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
5:30. I'm an early bird and kinda proud of it.

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT THREE NIGHTS AGO?
Waking up and devouring a bag of doritos.

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
Not really.

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
Buy a new-er computer.

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
15 minutes ago.

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
My obsessive tendancies. I get stuck in one thought pattern and it kinda eats up everything else around it.

18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS...WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Buy a new car, pay of my debt, my sister's debt, my mother's debt, and my father's debt. Then i'd donate to a few charities and stash the rest for retirement. And oh yeah, put a down payment on a condo. No mowing, no shovelling.

19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
Three years in December.

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
Tom who?

21. LAST THING YOU ATE?
ham melt and mozzarella sticks from Arby's

23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
May

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?

January, febuary, march. . . any month involving snow.

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING THAT YOU WORE
gray slacks and a knit top

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
immediately, no one. cumulatively, my sister..

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGES?
FF.net, cute overload, the daily kitten, MSN

28. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
My mother.

30. DO YOU EASILY GET OVER A HEARTACHE?
Yeah, kinda.

32. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
nope.

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Give my condolences to their family and forget then about them.

These are pretty addictive.  And tasty.  And did I mention cute?  What a novel idea!  One buck at your local supermarket and you have 15 minutes in heaven, and it even comes in a tiny little package!!




OMG It's almost too cute to eat. 


Except it's not.

laurie_bunter

1. You have the power to erase one manga/anime (and its entire fandom) from the history of the world. What will it be? Okay, this might be a little obscure, but since I have not come across any anime/manga I thoroughly hate, this is the closest thing to it. Mein Leibe and its sequel Mein Leibe Weider. I was roaming animesuki about a year ago looking for something new and interesting to watch, and this one caught my eye. How do I describe it? Bishie, bishie, bishie, DRAMA, drama, BISHIE!! I watched the whole thing and moved on to the equally disappointing sequel series in hopes that something interesting might happen--and was sorely disappointed. It astounds me that a sequel was made to the original and when I found the manga online, I was too curious to dismiss it. Had it been mangled in transition to anime? Yes, but astoundingly, for the better. The manga had everything the anime had, with one horrifying addition: A female main character. Now I've seen some messed up stuff, but this is the one and only time I've seen a certifyable MARY SUE as the main character to an original manga. I'd like to thank the manga-ka for wasting several of my precious hours, and the fanbase for being insensitive enough to make the original so popular that a sequel was foisted upon the unsuspecting populace.

2. What are your best qualities as a writer? Heh. Sometimes it's hard to believe I have more than one, but I think the ear for dialogue is what's special to me. I've always loved how you can lay out a person's entire nature in one conversation. Other than that, the grammar skills have come in pretty handy too ;)

3. What are you worst qualities as a person? I'm a cynical, self-absorbed, self-indulgent pushover. We create our own problems.

4. What is the most surreal but true thing that has ever happened to you? This is an ongoing thing, actually. I live with the modern incarnation of Harry Houdini, whom I affectionately refer to as my baby brother. He's brilliant, funny, fiscally conservative and hardworking. If I wasn't related to him, I'd seriously be considering marrying him, even if he can also be smug, capricious and a horrible slob. The surreal thing is that no one else knows him. I've had family members (uncles, aunts, cousins) look at me all wild-eyed and hysterical, saying they'd seen him somewhere, and they sound like they've seen a yeti or something. And yet I see him on a daily basis in all his weird and comical glory. That's about as surreal as things get for me.

5. Why are you so elusive online? Are you pathologically shy, lazy, or busy -- or a combination of all three? You've hit it. Pretty much a combination of all three. I like reading people's opinions and stuff, but more often than not I really don't have anything interesting to add, and I hate spam. Other than that, time is limited and I have too many projects on my plate, so a lot of the time I fight to get stuff done. My writing work-ethic is really bad, so when I have an idea I have to pounce on it before it wanders away. :P

I never thought I had the discipline to blog. Sure, I write on almost (emphasis on the almost) daily basis, but I don't think I have the momentum to be interesting on a daily basis. Hell, one day a week is pushing it. Writing, for me, has become such a self-indulgent activity that part of me is begging for a beta-reader and the other, snarkier half is sniffing, “Are you fucking kidding me? You know what you need to do.” But I'm lazy and a little conceited. End of story.

I am so stoked by the response Snaring the Dragon is getting, you wouldn't believe it. Oh, I'm thrilled that i finally managed to pick Byakuya and Soifon back up, but I really am all about the rentat right now. So much about it that one comment sent me spiraling into a circle of thought. If they are out of character here, they were out of character in Giving Up and Moving On, too.

So how do I make them in character, if I've already pretty much cast them in iron in my head?

Sadly, it's not possible. So the Renji and Tatsuki I mutated in my head are here to stay. The least I can do for them is make them likable and semi-believable.